Structure, Time, Memory, and the Sadness of a Disillusioned Writer [The Invented Part]
On this week’s Two Month Review podcast, we’ll be discussing the fifth part of (“Life After People, or Notes for a Brief History of Progressive Rock and Science Fiction,” pages 361-404). As a bit of preparation, below you’ll find some initial thoughts, observations, and quotes.
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As has been noted on a few occasions, The Invented Part is made up of seven clear sections (one of which has three chapters), which are grouped into three different parts. So far, we鈥檝e read five of them:
Part I
鈥淭he Real Character鈥: The Writer as The Boy nearly drowning at the beach.
Part II
鈥淭he Place Where the Sea Ends So the Forest Can Begin鈥: Young Man and Young Woman are working on the movie about the absent Writer.
鈥淎 Few Things You Happen to Think 蘑菇传媒 When All You Want Is to Think 蘑菇传媒 Nothing鈥: In which The Writer feels his own encroaching mortality and wants more time to write all the stories that flood his brain.
鈥淢any F锚tes, or Study for a Group Portrait with Broken Decalogues鈥: Notes about a book The Writer wants to write (which seems to be The Invented Part) and his various inspirations.
鈥淟ife After People, or Notes for a Brief History of Progressive Rock and Science Fiction鈥: Features Tom, a childhood friend of The Writer鈥檚, who gets a call from The Writer right after The Writer breaks into CERN and does what he does to end up 鈥渇loating through time and space, happily multidimensional.鈥
Before listing the two sections we haven鈥檛 read, I want to take a second to point out a structural pattern that I鈥檓 only noticing now, on this re-read. Namely, that this is a symmetrical book with sections 1-7, 2-6, 3-5 reflecting each other, with section 4 being a sort of fulcrum around which the rest balance.
For example, in section 3 we鈥檙e in the mind of The Writer, approaching a false death (remember鈥攈e thinks it鈥檚 the end times, but tests prove that his chest pain was nothing serious at all) while constantly constructing ideas.
In section 5, The Writer has gone beyond, and we鈥檙e in the mind of a friend of his鈥攚ho receives an incredibly powerful story from The Transcended Writer. First approaching death, now on the other side of it. Initially making stories to maybe write, now dropping a story into someone鈥檚 mind.
If I鈥檓 right about this sort of overarching, almost mathematical, structure, then section 6 (鈥淢eanwhile, Once Again, Beside the Museum Stairway, Under a Big Sky鈥) should be about the Young Man and Young Woman from section 2, and the last section鈥攖he only one of Part III鈥斺淭he Imaginary Person,鈥 should end back with The Writer, fully grown, no longer The Boy from section 1.
Just something to keep in mind (maybe!) as you contemplate the book as a whole. Fres谩n may have written all seven sections at the same time, but he鈥檚 a genius, and the connections and underlying structures are far from random. Again: genius.
Speaking of structure鈥攁nd this came up at the very end of the podcast you鈥檒l hear on Thursday鈥攖his particular chapter is really interesting in terms of how much time actually elapses during the course of these pages.
Here鈥檚 the opening:
鈥淒un dun dun da-DAdun, da-DAdun . . .鈥 He realizes that he鈥檚 in big trouble when, hearing a strange sound in his house and not being able to locate its source, he finally discovers that the sound is springing (springing, ah, such a sonic verb) from his own mouth. Through clenched teeth. And that it鈥檚 nothing but his own voice singing low, deep, martial, the ominous and instantly catchy and unforgettable musical theme that marks the entrances and exits of the dark and asthmatic and uniformed and reconstructed Darth Vader in the movies of the Star Wars saga.
So that鈥檚 what he鈥檚 doing, advancing through a house that鈥檚 too big for him now. And he moves through its hallways and bedrooms with the sneaking suspicion that, behind and beneath them, are more hallways and more rooms. [. . .]
鈥淲hat year is it?鈥 he wonders.
鈥淒oes it matter?鈥 he answers.
For a couple months now鈥攕ince his wife left him, taking their little son with her鈥攈e鈥檚 been living in the near-suspended animation of the minute-to-minute. It鈥檚 harder鈥攂ut it hurts less.
I never noticed how many references to time are embedded in this opening page until copying this out. References to what he鈥檚 doing 鈥渘ow,鈥 questions about the year (and it not mattering), the couple of months since his wife left, living in the 鈥渘ear-suspended animation of the minute-to-minute.鈥 Given the ending twist to this chapter鈥擳he Writer living beyond it all, having merged with the god particle or whatever鈥攖his focus on time passing feels not at all coincidental.
After a digression about the ex-wife and his relationship with his son, we get a minor meditation on the past:
The past is a telephone that rings like those old telephones never rang, the ones that, in the beginning of their history, only rang to inform you of something decisive, historic. And, yes, with time there will be many people (though not as many as, for example, those who fixed in their memory the precise and private context that surrounded the death of John Fitzgerald Kennedy or the death of John Lennon; those moments in History, with a capital H, that turn into something almost palpable, something that鈥檚 almost breathed and enters the lungs and heart and brain) who鈥檒l remember with millimetric precision exactly what they were doing when they found out about the disintegration of that writer.
And then amid those reflections we get the most direct statement about what happens to The Writer and a statement from The Transcended Writer himself, which really drives home this 鈥渢ime鈥 theme:
But yes Tom was wide awake and with fifty years draped over him like a very heavy blanket when the writer, who鈥檇 once been his best childhood and adolescent friend, evaporated in a storm of particles and quantum physics and dark matter. And, yes, Tom remembers precisely what he was doing then. Not only when he learned of the 鈥渁ccident鈥濃攂etter and more in-depth, on the news that night鈥攂ut in the exact instant that it took place. Because he鈥檇 just finished not talking to the writer but listening to him * (鈥淚鈥檓 calling you after so long because you have to know where I am and what I鈥檓 about to do, what I鈥檓 doing, what I did; because now all times are one for me. Now I no longer have time, I鈥檓 atemporal,鈥 his friend had said from so far away) talk on the telephone; because Tom didn鈥檛 dare interrupt him, didn鈥檛 dare say a word. Tom just listened to his sharp and clear voice for a long time on the answering machine recording, after his son came to find him in the bathroom and said: 鈥Papi, the phone is making a weird noise.鈥
Now, I could be wrong鈥攁nd probably am鈥攂ut I think this moment of Tom鈥檚 son telling him about the phone ringing is the only real 鈥渘ow鈥 of this chapter. The rest of it鈥攎emories of meeting The Writer and Penelope, of Tom鈥檚 relationship with his son Fin, the bits about Life After People, Pink Floyd, 2001: A Space Odyssey, even the words of The Writer, which are seemingly implanted into Tom鈥檚 mind along with Penelope鈥檚 story鈥攁re all memories filling in around this moment.
(The one exception is the final bit of this chapter which begins, 鈥淚t鈥檚 night now. The dead of night.鈥 A bit of a coda after the storm in which Tom remembers Penelope鈥檚 story, forever seared into his mind鈥斺淚t鈥檚 late now, now it鈥檚 too late to forget鈥攏ow he鈥檒l never forget it鈥攚hat Penelope did or stopped doing with her little son.鈥濃攁nd has the most touching of moments with Fin.)
Similar to the William Burroughs part in Penelope鈥檚 Mount Karma section, Fres谩n incorporates a lot of factual, real-life events and artworks here. Specifically, this is the 鈥淧ink Floyd section,鈥 telling of Syd Barrett鈥檚 mental breakdown, his random appearance at the recording studio where Pink Floyd II was recording Wish You Were Here, along with descriptions and accounts of a few other Pink Floyd albums.
Similar to how Fitzgerald transformed the real life of the Murphys into Tender Is the Night, Fres谩n is transforming real-life stories about art into new art. Transforming information about creators into a creation about a creator.
All of these stories are told within Tom鈥檚 mind though, which adds an interesting wrinkle or two. It鈥檚 a bit of a clich茅 to say that you are what you read (or watch, or listen to), but like Brian mentions on the podcast, major works of art oftentimes serve as sort of touchstones to determine and shape friendships. (Anyone I meet who mentions The Crying of Lot 49 and Twin Peaks and Dan Deacon will become an insta-friend.)
Interpretation does play a role though, as does one鈥檚 memory. The mind isn鈥檛 a flawless recording device, but something more mysterious and active, in which things shift and morph and become something else.
For example, there is this:
And his friends are left there to cry. And to record. And, with time, Waters and Gilmour think that that might have been the moment, after wrapping up Wish You Were Here (that in the beginning didn鈥檛 entirely win over the critics, that reaches number one in sales on both sides of the Atlantic when it鈥檚 released, and that time and perspective and distance elevate as their unanimous and indisputable crowning achievement), the exact and perfect time for the band to break up. The precise instant鈥攆rom which there was no going back鈥攖o conclude their life cycle, with that ode to the omnipresent absent friend. And that way avoid the imminent ex-friendships resulting from the convulsive and revulsive recordings of Animals and The Wall and The Final Cut. To go, to let go, with those airs bottled in the fullest of emptinesses, the absolute and joyously sad emptiness of their lyrics and music. With that magic moment鈥攁t the end of 鈥淲elcome to the Machine鈥 and the beginning of 鈥淲ish You Were Here鈥濃攚hen someone seemed to be trying to tune in a radio, the one in David Gilmour鈥檚 car. And you heard voices and a few bars of Tchaikovsky鈥檚 Symphony No. 4. And suddenly all the sound drops, like a candle blown out for the birthday of an era. A pause that it took Tom many listens (staring intently at the needle above the grooves, trying to see what was happening) to grasp wasn鈥檛 a potential defect in his parents鈥 stereo equipment reacting to some secret frequency so that then, after the entrance of that vintage acoustic guitar solo, everything would climb again, like the highest of rising of tides.
What鈥檚 interesting about this is the bridge between the story about Pink Floyd breaking up to Tom鈥檚 personal story about internalizing that specific moment in which Tom remembers the album incorrectly. As Rodrigo mentioned to me in an email, 鈥淲ish You Were Here鈥 doesn鈥檛 come at the end of 鈥淲elcome to the Machine,鈥 but at the end of 鈥淗ave a Cigar.鈥 We are in Tom鈥檚 memory here now . . . And, as a tease, I鈥檒l just mention that Rodrigo said that this will be explained in The Remembered Part . . .
Finally, I have a few quick notes about parents and their children. This is something I鈥檝e been honing in on throughout my re-read. From the opening section about The Boy and his parents (who lead a crazy life!) to the proliferation of stories about fathers and sons that The Writer comes up with while at the hospital to Penelope鈥檚 story to Tom and his son. Still not 100% sure of what to make of all this, but there鈥檚 a theme of disappointment and failure that runs throughout. Along with fears of death and violence.
That really comes home in this episode, in which The Writer 鈥済ifts鈥 Tom the full story of Penelope and her son, which isn鈥檛 fully explained, but which Tom can鈥檛 get out of his mind (鈥渘ow he鈥檒l never forget it鈥攚hat Penelope did or stopped doing with her little son鈥) and leads him to go to Fin鈥檚 room and the final, pretty emotional sentence of this section: 鈥淪itting on the edge of the bed, he holds his son to keep from falling.鈥
One last quote:
Major Tom: until a few minutes ago I was a disillusioned writer. And there鈥檚 nothing sadder than a disillusioned writer, Major Tom. A disillusioned writer has that sadness that makes no one sad but himself.

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